I hadn't heard that saying evah, and now, I keep hearing it. I put up photos of me when I was kid on face-book and 3 people wrote "super cute:)" It's funny because I have sad memories of my childhood, but having people reflect it back to me that way is a very nice feeling.  I was pretty cute. I will put the pics on my site soon as well. One picture in particular is very  funny. It's me in the incubator and I have my hand on my chin like a little philosopher. I must have been contemplating the meaning of life while I was in there.  I had to, I was all by myself so there was no other choice. Today, I think the meaning of life is experiencing your life the way you live it, and taking responsibility for you actions and how they affect others.  As I look back over certain experiences in my life even if they were painful I can usually find some joy and that joy stems from how I acted. Which brings me to the Murphy Brown story. As I mentioned before  I was supposed to be on that show for 22 episodes with a back up development deal. I chose that show over Townies, which was a new show at the time.  I would be a fifth wheel on Murphy when i could have been the star on Townies.I wanted to be humble and learn from the best.  I felt that  was the smartest move. I remember waiting to hear when I was supposed to go to LA to shoot the show. It was taking a while , and finally i flew out to take the cast photo's. It was me, Candace, Lilly Tomlin and the rest of the cast. I specifically remember telling myself to know my place. to stay quiet and mind my business. Well Candace was so nice it threw me. Made me drop my guard a little.  I remember when they were taking my single shots dancing to that song "If I could I'd be a great big movie star, and over night sensation!" and every body laughed. I left feeling pretty good about my choice. Wel,l again it took a lond time for them to call to tell me when I should come. Finally, the call came I packed it up and moved my little booty to la la land. I showed up the first day for the table read and when they introduced me as the new cast member I flipped my hair a little and they laughed so loud. It struck me as weird because it wasn't that funny.  I got the feeling that these people had been miserable for a long time and I might be a breath of fresh air. Anyway, when it came to the part where I read with Candace, she sat with her back to me reading her Christmas catalog. Faith Ford said, "Candace, your ignoring Sue.' And Candace replied "yeah well she's just gonna have to get used that isn't she." It was right then that the street in me showed up. Well not the street, because if it was the street I would have kicked her ass and she would have won, she would have pulled me to lay with the dogs and we all know what happens then, you get fleas. I guess the  word is, inner strength, I knew she was trying to provoke me. It's didn't work. I walked away and went into my dressing room. Then it came time for us to put the scene on it's feet. Well the scene was actually art imitating life. I think my line was something like" please she doesn't scare me I've been in knife fights worse than her." (or something along those lines.) Well the director was showing me how to put the glass down in front of her and splashed a dab of water on her shirt and she ran off stage. But before she left, she tired to correct every line I said. Needless to say, I knew what she was trying to do. She was trying to make me freak out so she could fire me. I remember the producer saying that to me "don't you get it Sue she's jealous of you?"  and I couldn't rap my brain around it. I mean she was Candace Bergen. We had the network run through that afternoon and I wasn't going to let her mess it up so I went to the dressing room and memorized my lines........................................................ To be continued...........